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For the first time in my life

I am now in a new demographic.

As my 32 birthday quickly approaches, I have been reminiscing on the goodness of God and how different my life is now than I could have ever imagined.

This nostalgia is not because I feel as though I am getting old, but it is because when I was 15 something happened to me. Twenty two days before my Sweet Sixteen, I was radically transformed by the power of God in the fires of revival.

Each year that passes, I can’t help but reflect on how my life has been more than I could ever have imagined.

This year is special.

Just yesterday, I had the honor of meeting for the first time the man that was preaching the night I was saved. His name is Steve Hill, and one thing I have desired for some time is to simply shake his hand and say, “Thank you… thank for you for being obedient and preaching the Gospel.”

Me with Steve Hill

[I always try to be careful when I talk about this, because there are other people that played a HUGE role in my life as a young believer. For example, there is Mike Montag. Mike was the Youth Pastor at South Attleboro Assembly of God, is truly a humble and faithful man of God, and was my first mentor. He discipled me in many areas of life, and was crucial in forming my life as a teenager.]

This opportunity to sit and talk to Steve Hill landed right between my spiritual birthday and my biological birthday; which this year is significant. (Have I mentioned that yet?)

So, why is this significant? What new demographic do I now fit into?

I was born March 13, 1981.
I was born-again February 19, 1997.
I am turning 32 on March 13, 2013.
This means I have now, officially, been a born-again Christian for more than half of my life.

For many people this may seem insignificant; but to know how screwed up my life was, how bent I was for hell, and how my life was on a serious downward spiral, this is a testament to how amazing God is!

His grace continues to blow me away!

I spent a half hour this morning just crying as I thanked God for His faithfulness.

I really feel as though I have entered a new season of my life. There are things I feel as though God has been speaking to me and showing me… I have been having dreams, and am experiencing many “divine connections” with individuals in the city and in ministry.

I don’t know all that God has in store, but I am excited!

I have been given a birthday gift that I feel perfectly commemorates this unique time in my life—The Revival Study Bible.

The Revival Study Bible

With my rebirth having been forged in the flames of revival, and Steve Hill being the general editor, to me this is a special sword that will be used to fight many spiritual battles in the years to come.

Thanks to everyone that have been a part of my life, and I pray that we see greater things to come!

ONWARD!!!

Steve

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What If You Have Nothing to Say?

Go back to the Xanga years. Remember those? Yeah, that was my first attempt at blogging. My first account was named aURiCle_HolOcAUsT. Awful. I was sporadic in my posting, and usually felt like I needed to say a lot; or at least be really deep and thought provoking. When in Detroit, I attempted a rebirth of cool and started a new Xanga account; which was my first A Boy Brushed Red… blog—to no avail. I have revisited those accounts back in 2010, which are still active, and updated the profile pics; but it just feels like a wasteland there.

I flirted with Blogger, but didn’t care for it (which meant no blogging). Then, I relaunched a blogger site when I began reviewing books, and it became solely a book review page; which is also titled A Boy Brushed Red… This is for my Booksneeze reviews.

Finally, the world of the WordPress was opened to me. This was started a bit before the relaunch of the Blogger site. I love WordPress. But, even with my love for the site, it was more of an occasional affair due to my lack of blogging. This site launched in June of 2010, and I posted 20 times the rest of the year. Then, in 2011, I more than doubled that for the year! (Impressive, right? … not.) But, in mid-November of last year I had a revelation, and my desire to blog has drastically changed. Apart from my January Social Media Fast, I have been blogging about 4-5 times a week. This has been challenging at times, because I don’t want to say something just for the sake of saying something, yet I really want to be writing every day.

But, what if you have nothing to say? This question used to run through my mind a lot. And then later along the line it hit me: I should always be able to say something. No, not for the sake of just saying something, but because I should be putting into my life the Word of God, spending time in prayer, and imparting truth into others’ lives. If I am actively doing this daily, then there should be ideas, thoughts, questions, Scriptures, and observations that can be shared with you. No, I won’t share everything I am thinking or experiencing. That would just be weird.

So, why the long intro reminiscing on the ancient and failed blogging attempts? Because they demonstrate what my life was like, and my lack of discipline and desire to share what God is doing in my life. It is somewhat reflective of the kind of relationship I had with Him. I was treating Him more like an unstable, uncertain dating relationship rather than the devoted, faithful marriage that it should represent. There was a lot of growing that needed to take place in my life… maturity was a must, and it took some time to get there. Thankfully, God is faithful and He has grace that extends far beyond what I can comprehend. He allowed me the opportunity to be mentored by some great men, and used these times to break me and reshape me; and that has instilled in me a devotion to the Lord on a level that I didn’t have before. For that alone, I am forever grateful. Not that I can now blog about it, but because my life, family, and ministry are forever changed.

Thankful…

Steve

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